As I have begun to have some time to reflect on the decision to bring my wife home so she can spend her remaining time here on earth something has become evident. The decision itself actually was an easy one and took about maybe 20 seconds to say ” it’s time to go home”. That may seem trite but this decision was based on years of prayer, talks with her and the spiritual people God has brought into my life. Was it the right decision but when you make the most important decision you will ever make in your life there is a downside to it. (Like this morning walking down to check on her and she was in the fetal position)
When you make that decision, you are not only making it for your loved one; you are also making it for yourself. That in ways can be the most difficult part. The life we have known for over 28 years is coming to an end. It just is and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
So Satan attacks like never before and I just try and give her the best quality of life I can and that is all I can really do.
The flip side is once you make that kind of decision then everything else in so very minor in nature!
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