Yesterday as I watched the medical staff give my wife her newest cancer medical treatment. It was frankly difficult to watch. Yet it was necessary to have done.
Isn’t that true about your spiritual walk? Doesn’t God sometimes give you treatments that you would rather live without? I know he does to me regularly.
Early this week in one of the most important doctors’ appointments that we have yet to have over my wife’s failing health we were told if we stayed on this course of treatment she probably have about 3 weeks to live. That will get your attention! We were given 3 choices to consider.
For us there really wasn’t a choice and that was option number 3. ( we had actually thought they were just going to send her home)
Will this work? We have no idea and this is not fun to go through for both of us.
For believers, it really comes down to one simple question.
Do you have faith or not?
We do and we rolled the ” faith dice” of our lives because in the end we really didn’t have a choice.
As we go through life with our struggles one has to realize that all of us have and need is hope. Now that hope can be found in our Lord Savior Jesus Christ. My wife ( who could have been my late wife we the news we were given today) has this favorite saying” There is always if you are on this side of the sod” That is true. So she will be gone for at least another week to get the help she needs. I will on the other hand sit in an empty house by myself again and some things never change. It’s no fun going through tough times alone and I have never gotten used to it. So all I must have is hope from our Lord Jesus Christ that the house won’t seem so big and the tears won’t be so bad this time. Because my biggest fear is losing her and for that I am certain.
As I sit here this early November morning, I ponder whether I should attempt to go to church?
You see my wife’s cancer seems to be picking up its attacks on her body. Her daughter is coming by to spend time with her, which will be good. I feel tired, alone and emotionally exhausted. Then in the morning, we have a doctor’s appointment with a cancer specialist that we have been told in advance she very well have to be hospitalized for the 4 time in about a month.
When we started this fight with her health we thought it would be about her heart but cancer decided to rear its ugly head. ( like so many others)
Am I going to church this morning? I have no idea. Will I be able to take a nap before that decision has to be made? Nope
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