An Old Man's Walk Through Faith
Many people who claim they are people of faith have this notion that it only comes in handy during troubled times. In reality, it happens every second of every day. When you go to start your car each morning, there is a level of faith that it will start. The same thing can be said when you turn on any of your household appliances. You see its the small things that require faith, not the big stuff like failing health of a loved one.
So, how is your faith today?
So often in life, we get frustrated because God isn’t doing what we want and in our time. Here is the problem with that thinking that we are all guilty of day after day.
GOD NEVER CHANGES
What changes is our situation in life, but not God. We moan and complain about how unfair life is, but this brings us to a bigger question. When Jesus died on the cross for all of our sins, how was that fair to him? He did nothing wrong from the moment her took his first breath to that day on the cross!
As I have reached what many would consider the twilight years of my life, I have learned one thing for sure. God is in control, and we are all just along for the ride! So, folks, we can all moan and complain all we want, but in the end, it doesn’t matter because no matter what happens
GOD NEVER CHANGES!
As some people are aware of last April I lost my wife of 28 years. To say it has been a roller coaster ride would be an understatement. After going through this process, I have come to 3 realizations.
Over a year ago I met this woman and we talked, but let me make this perfectly clear, she was at no time disrespectful to my marriage. If we were 5 ft apart, that was too close in her eyes. I saw her again a few weeks ago, and we just started talking. ( She is the shyest person I have ever met) Now we communicate almost daily but its nice an easy. She is a talented artist, and we have talked about how we can grow her business.
I know I have rambled on some here but although I am really tired all the time.( I see Doctor this week about that) I am at peace on many levels for the first time in decades.
However, I am going to update the blog so don’t be surprised if you see changes soon.
On this day one year ago I made the tough and right decision to bring the love of my life home so she could die in our home. That day lasted longer than we thought as she lasted until April 3rd. As painful as the decision was to bring her home I will always believe it was the right decision at the time. I have some tough days ahead and the biggest concern is getting me through Christmas Eve. No matter what I do I will come back to our empty 3 bedroom home and our cat. There is simply no way around it. I do get tired of people reminding me that this is a year of first for me. I was aware of that the day I lost her. My neighbor said today that on Christmas Day I will be doing something with him and his wife. One of the things that her and I didn’t really anticpate was some linger health issues that I really can’t get a handle on.
However, her biggest fear has come true and that fear was that I would be so physically alone. The thing is there are millions of men in my situation who lose their life long partner and wake up one day and realize they are all alone. It something we learn to accept whether we like it or not.
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