One Year Ago Today It Was Time To Bring Her Home

On this day one year ago I made the tough and right decision to bring the love of my life home so she could die in our home. That day lasted longer than we thought as she lasted until April 3rd. As painful as the decision was to bring her home I will always believe it was the right decision at the time. I have some tough days ahead and the biggest concern is getting me through Christmas Eve. No matter what I do I will come back to our empty 3 bedroom home and our cat. There is simply no way around it. I do get tired of people reminding me that this is a year of first for me. I was aware of that the day I lost her. My neighbor said today that on Christmas Day I will be doing something with him and his wife. One of the things that her and I didn’t really anticpate was some linger health issues that I really can’t get a handle on.

However, her biggest fear has come true and that fear was that I would be so physically alone. The thing is there are millions of men in my situation who lose their life long partner and wake up one day and realize they are all alone. It something we learn to accept whether we like it or not.

Moving Forward

I made the decision a couple of days ago to move from my house of over 2 decades and it’s time. You see I lost my beloved wife 6 months ago and I promised myself I would wait 6 months before I make any major decsions. In fact although I have some idea where to go next in ways I just don’t know. All I know for sure is living in the house in which she took her last breath is just getting to painful to deal with day after day and night after night. As I move forward I know my needs have changed since I don’t have her anymore. I don’t need this 3 bedroom house anymore. Afterall its just me and my cat.

So when it doubt pray and pray again because he already knows how this is going to turn out.

A Old Man And His Secret

There was an old man who was facing the greatest challenge of his life. A few months earlier he had lost the love of his life. While in a medical facility one day he got speaking to a charming and delightful younger woman. (Then again at his age most women are younger) The more she told her life story and how she had “bet” on herself the more he became engulfed in her story. When they were done speaking they both seemed to realized that something much more important had taken place than what was originally intended.

She really is a special woman and probably she has different thoughts about what happened that day.

All the old man knows is that this special lady has changed his life forever and it is a secret that he can’t share with her because doing so might offend her and for him that can never be an option.

What You Are Going Through Others Can’t Understand

Some people have this bad habit of expressing to someone that they know what they are going through during tough times. The truth is they don’t have a clue and sometimes I think people don’t know what to say. It is ok to be honest with someone else who is hurting by telling them they you don’t understand.

If God has put it on your heart to reach out to someone then do it. It’s a mistake to allow other factors to interfere with what God has put on your heart.

Maybe that person who is hurting so bad just needs to hear the sound of someone else’s voice. Maybe something that is more tangible. Especially when it comes to serious health issues.

So has God put something on your heart tonight or in the last few days then you probably need to get to it as soon as possible because God put that on your heart. It’s up to you to act on it.