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How Much Longer Can I Take This Pain?

Well, it’s been another day of crying and screaming at the loss of my wife over 2 months ago. Being alone hour after hour makes the pain that much worse. The house’s emptiness makes my crying and screaming echo off the walls. My reality is I am 65 and all alone. There is simply no way to sugarcoat that fact. I just don’t know how much more of this I can emotionally and physically take? The other reality is this question.

How much more do I want to keep up this fight? My late wife was why I fought life’s battles each day. When I lost her, I not only lost my life partner but also the only real family I had. All we had was each other.

All I know is what lies ahead for me tonight is an empty house and a lot of screaming and crying. Of course the Good Lord could put a stop to this pain I am feeling and call me home tonight. Then I could be with him and her for eternity.

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Grieving the Loss of A Loved One

As Halloween is fast approaching for many it’s a time for fun but for me, it hasn’t been since 2008. That was the day that I lost my dad. That moment of loss and watching him fade away something became and that is there are forces in the universe that no matter how big and strong I am I can’t stop. That of course is the power of The Lord God Almighty. The reality is that you never truly get over the loss of a loved one. You just learn over time it does become somewhat easier to handle.

There has been this debate for eternity over which is better to lose someone. Some believe that it’s easier if your loved one goes quickly. While there are those it’s better if it is something drawn out so you have time to say your goodbyes. Having gone through one and for the last several years while going through the other I can safely say that I don’t have a clue.

I do know that all people grieve differently and for others to judge others when they are grieving is simply wrong.