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You Ever Feel Like You Can’t Go On?

A few weeks back, I lost the love of my life of 28 years. Since then, I have cried, screamed, and begged for the Lord Jesus Christ to take me off this earth so I can be with her. It’s not that I am suicidal; it’s because I just want to be with her. I have no doubt that those pleadings will continue for as long as I can see. These are normal and to be expected, but here is the catch. I am not going anywhere until the Lord Jesus Christ is done with my journey on this earth and in his time frame.

So for me the verse that helps me begin to understand what I am going through is

Psalm 30:5

For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

You see, the only thing that keeps me going is the knowledge that there will be rejoicing again and that day will come when the Lord Jesus Christ decides my work on earth is done. Until then, he will give me the strength to keep going

There is also this small matter of who would be madder at me if I simply gave up? My late wife or God?

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Losing A Parent Versus Losing A Spouse Comparison

As many of you know, I lost my spouse about 9 days ago.

Let me tell you something, there is simply no comparison between losing a parent and losing a spouse is much more intense, especially when you spend night after night all alone.

The “experts” say in these types of situations, don’t become isolated. That ship sailed in my life a very long time ago and it’s probably not going to end anytime soon.

Losing a spouse is like nothing else on earth. As she said, it is a very private matter between the spouses.

I am miserable and not dealing well with this at all. Tomorrow is Palm Sunday. I understand how important it is, but I may not be going to church because it’s Palm Sunday is also about families, and mine is in heaven.

Oh well, back to looking at the empty walls, maybe they will ask if I’m ok?

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Your Faith Dice Are You Ready To Roll Them?

Sometimes, you have to roll your faith dice, not knowing how they will turn out. So when do these times occur and what are faith dice anyway? Faith dice are things you build up over time in your faith journey. ( not by any works you have done) These times can very often happen in medical situations. You gather all the information you have been given and then you have a choice to make and in that moment is when you decide if you are going to roll your faith dice?

Here is an example of what I am referring. Several years ago my wife’s health had really started to fail. After a long and drawn-out conversation, I had a decision to make was I willing to roll my faith dice knowing that if I didn’t then she could die but if I did say yes then she could also die. (Reflecting on it now my wife and her doctor were like 2 little children waiting to see what Dad was going to say?) I finally decided to say yes under 2 conditions. The first was that we were going to throw everything we could at this and the second was I don’t want to hear about money. That was over 9 years ago and we still have her but this past weekend we had a similar conversation but this time it was easier to make. It may blow up on us but there is one significant difference between now and then. That big difference is the spiritual support system that we have today. So all those many years ago as I stood by the bedside all alone I had no idea what God had planned for our lives.( by the way in those situations you don’t think about how much stuff you have)

So yes I have rolled them twice in my life but in the end as a believer in The Lord Jesus Christ, in reality, I didn’t have any faith dice to roll in the first place.

However, there is one big caveat to these situations. The time to be in the Word and to grow your faith is before you are faced with these types of situations.

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How Are Your Nails Doing? ( Not the Ones on Your Hands)

When we think of nails, we often think of the ones we have on our hands. Yet we all have nails in our hands that are far more significant than the ones that many like to paint with different colors.

The ones I am referring to are the ones that the struggles of daily life give us each day. We might think of them as small or big, but in reality, they are all small compared to the nails hammered into Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ’s hands on that fateful day so many centuries ago.

I know it can be difficult when the nails seem so big that we don’t see how we will ever get through the pain and suffering but always remember that all of your “nails”
are small in comparison. Besides, there is a way for all of us to remove those nails from our hands and it is a relatively simple thing that can be so difficult and that is to be in the word of God each day.

I know for me personally that has been a major struggle due to the life events that are out of my control.