• The Awaited Call

    December 4, 2024
    God, Men

    As I await a phone call from my wife with the results of a medical test that could change everything. You would think that we you have to have your wife admitted to a hospital 5 times with about 7 and a half weeks you would get somewhat use it the wait. You don’t because you simply never know how things are going to change next.

    As I sit here alone ( again) and ponder what tomorrow is for me personally ( my 65th birthday) I look back to a conversation I had with my mother earlier today. She asked me if I was excited about tomorrow? No and why should I? For me, it’s just another day in which I worry that the love of my life will be taken from me.

    Will that call come tonight? I have no idea? The loneliness I feel won’t be leaving anytime soon then again in ways it hasn’t since this journey started all those many weeks ago.

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  • Does Anyone Truly Care About Me?

    November 30, 2024
    Faith, God, Men

    The above question is something that long-term caregivers ask themselves regularly and the reality is that it is a question I ask myself regularly. As my wife’s health continues to fail with another transfusion yesterday for my wife that question comes up for me more and more. I understand that her and I are pretty much alone in the day-to-day fight and the focus on her health is correct.

    However, the reality is I do turn 65 this Thursday, and on Friday we find out if all of the aggressive treatment for her health has worked or not.

    The reality is that this early November morning, besides my mother and my wife, my list gets really short quickly. Who knows why that is, but the reality for me is that is how I feel, and especially now, actions speak louder than words.

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  • Another Sleepless Night

    November 28, 2024
    Church, Faith

    Well, here I am again. I haven’t had much sleep, which is the norm these days. The major reason, of course, is my wife’s failing health. It is not so much thinking about it on a conscious level but a subconscious one. Someone said in an e-mail yesterday that I am carrying a heavy load and they are right.

    However, when I look closer at what I am feeling, it comes down to one fundamental fact. Like many millions of other Americans, we don’t have a day-to-day physical support system. People who are there regardless of what is going on in their lives. Sure I can bring in home health and the like but that still does not change that fact in our lives. When I hear people complain about this person or another in their lives I just want to scream “You don’t understand how fortunate you are to have those people being there for you”

    So it’s thanksgiving and we do have so much to be thankful for and we are blessed in so many ways.

    For those of you who have a day to day support system in your life cherish every single second because when you don’t there is such a void that cannot be put into words.

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  • Cancer Treatment And You

    November 15, 2024
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    Yesterday as I watched the medical staff give my wife her newest cancer medical treatment. It was frankly difficult to watch. Yet it was necessary to have done.

    Isn’t that true about your spiritual walk? Doesn’t God sometimes give you treatments that you would rather live without? I know he does to me regularly.

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