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You Ever Feel Like You Can’t Go On?

May 19, 2025

Life, Men, Uncategorized
A few weeks back, I lost the love of my life of 28 years. Since then, I have cried, screamed, and begged for the Lord Jesus Christ to take me off this earth so I can be with her. It’s not that I am suicidal; it’s because I just want to be with her. I have no doubt that those pleadings will continue for as long as I can see. These are normal and to be expected, but here is the catch. I am not going anywhere until the Lord Jesus Christ is done with my journey on this earth and in his time frame.

So for me the verse that helps me begin to understand what I am going through is

Psalm 30:5

For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

You see, the only thing that keeps me going is the knowledge that there will be rejoicing again and that day will come when the Lord Jesus Christ decides my work on earth is done. Until then, he will give me the strength to keep going

There is also this small matter of who would be madder at me if I simply gave up? My late wife or God?
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Losing A Parent Versus Losing A Spouse Comparison

April 12, 2025

Life, Women
As many of you know, I lost my spouse about 9 days ago.

Let me tell you something, there is simply no comparison between losing a parent and losing a spouse is much more intense, especially when you spend night after night all alone.

The “experts” say in these types of situations, don’t become isolated. That ship sailed in my life a very long time ago and it’s probably not going to end anytime soon.

Losing a spouse is like nothing else on earth. As she said, it is a very private matter between the spouses.

I am miserable and not dealing well with this at all. Tomorrow is Palm Sunday. I understand how important it is, but I may not be going to church because it’s Palm Sunday is also about families, and mine is in heaven.

Oh well, back to looking at the empty walls, maybe they will ask if I’m ok?
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A Landfill Is The Destination For All of Your Stuff!

April 5, 2025

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As I have begun going through my late wife’s things ( that sounds strange), it has reaffirmed my long-held belief that all of this stuff doesn’t matter and will eventually end up in a landfill. It’s not by any means my attempt to erase her memory; it’s just something for me to do to try and fill the huge void losing her has left in my soul.

My greatest honor and privilege was being her husband for over 28 years. Yet all I have left our the memories we shared together and a bunch of stuff to get rid of period.

So all of that stuff that so many of you cherish and think you must have, let me give you some insight. All of those material possessions just don’t mean anything. They never have, a they never will, and that is one of the true facts of life.
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Feelings

April 4, 2025

Faith, Life, Uncategorized
As I sit alone here with my cat, less than 24 hours from losing the love of my life. I wonder if this pain will ever get any better or if it will stay like this forever.

Several people have inquired about how I am doing. It’s really simple. I am a trainwreck!

I have times I can rationalize it and then burst into tears at any second.

I will say this: you must be true to your feelings, regardless of what others may think, because if you don’t, you may come to regret it one day.

So, as I said to my beloved wife recently that I loved her and how proud I was of her and now she is with The Lord God Almighty, and I am here wondering if I can take one more step.

So if you think you have true feelings for someone, then tell them before it’s too late, because you never know they may have those same feelings too.
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You Ever Feel Like You Can’t Go On?

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