Over a year ago, I lost the love of my life after 28 years of marriage, which brought me into a club that I wanted no part of joining. Twice in the last 2 days, I have met 2 young women who have also become a part of the club over the last year. You see, it doesn’t matter how long you have been married; the pain is just as bad when you lose the love of your life. One of the women shared that they were trying to have a baby before he was tragically killed. The thing is, I have lost both parents now, and nothing compares to the loss of a spouse! If you really want to help someone who has lost a spouse, please stop telling them that you understand or how you lost a parent. It is not the same and never will be, and that is just the way life goes. The reality many will continue to join the club each and every day. Once you become a member of the club, you will have a unique bond with total strangers
Want To Talk About Jesus I’m Your Man!
On April 3rd of 2025 the love of my life went to be with Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Being married to this remarkable woman was the honor of my life.
However, the thing that brings me internal peace and joy is talking about Jesus Christ. It’s something I have known since childhood and my late wife knew it and was supportive of it. At first she was like “oh no!” but she quickly came around. With her passing and all the uncertainty that it has brought one thing that has not changed is my love of Jesus Christ Just the other day I was speaking with another remarkable woman and when I mentioned Jesus some special happened. Jesus came up in regards to how I handled my wife’s last few hours. We were alone , in our den with those traditional hymns she grew up on and at about 6:30 it got real quiet. I picked up her arm and it just fell back to the bed and at that moment I knew her pain and suffering was over and she was with The Lord Jesus Christ. So if you want to talk about Jesus bring it on because I am your man!
Mourning Of A Lost Love
On April 3,2025 I lost the love of my life of almost 30 years. We were married a bit over 28 of those years. Her given name was Nancy but to those of us who loved her so much she was better known as Nance. When I started calling her Nance I have no idea and it doesn’t really matter at this point! All that matters us that she has gone to be with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. She had been ill over about a decade and in December if 2024 I brought her home so she could die at home and that is what happened. It was her and I while the traditional hyms she grew up on played. Bring her home was the right decision but it is still very painful to live in our home knowing it is the place where she took her last breath.
However, as difficult as that was living without her is in many ways this is far worse. The silence in our home is beyond words. You see she was the music to our home. Her energy is what made life worth living and gave me the strength to carry on the battles if life. Now all I hear is a deafening silence that pierces my soul. I have tried playing music and leaving on the television at night for the noise but that really doesn’t help either. The only way I will ever find peace in my soul is the day I meet her with The Lord Jesus Christ!
Lonliness at a New Level?
As I spend another day trying to grapple with the loss of my wife of 28 years a question comes to mind? Is the level if loneliness reach a new level? My best guess is that it has and a major reason for that us the new found health scare I am going through now. She was always there to let me know that things were going to be ok even if she knew that was not the case.
When I returned to college after over 25 years away my first professor had this saying ” there are no solos” Of course she was referring to getting through college.
However, In many ways I am going through the most difficult time in my life physically solo and that makes a difficult situation even worse. We all need a physical shoulder to cry on and someone to say it’s going to be ok. I don’t have that like millions of others. For those of you who do cherish every single second because for those of us who don’t would give anything to have those kinds of relationships.
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