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Another Sleepless Night

Well, here I am again. I haven’t had much sleep, which is the norm these days. The major reason, of course, is my wife’s failing health. It is not so much thinking about it on a conscious level but a subconscious one. Someone said in an e-mail yesterday that I am carrying a heavy load and they are right.

However, when I look closer at what I am feeling, it comes down to one fundamental fact. Like many millions of other Americans, we don’t have a day-to-day physical support system. People who are there regardless of what is going on in their lives. Sure I can bring in home health and the like but that still does not change that fact in our lives. When I hear people complain about this person or another in their lives I just want to scream “You don’t understand how fortunate you are to have those people being there for you”

So it’s thanksgiving and we do have so much to be thankful for and we are blessed in so many ways.

For those of you who have a day to day support system in your life cherish every single second because when you don’t there is such a void that cannot be put into words.

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Maybe 3 Weeks The Doctor Thought

Early this week in one of the most important doctors’ appointments that we have yet to have over my wife’s failing health we were told if we stayed on this course of treatment she probably have about 3 weeks to live. That will get your attention! We were given 3 choices to consider.

  1. Do nothing and try and make her comfortable. ( Not really an option)
  2. Send her home without anything and by the first part of next week to try some different.
  3. Put her in the hospital right now and get really aggressive with her treatment and that she will be in the hospital for at least a week.

For us there really wasn’t a choice and that was option number 3. ( we had actually thought they were just going to send her home)

Will this work? We have no idea and this is not fun to go through for both of us.

For believers, it really comes down to one simple question.

Do you have faith or not?

We do and we rolled the ” faith dice” of our lives because in the end we really didn’t have a choice.

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An Old Man And A Empty Hospital Room

An old man sat in an empty hospital room and pondered whether he had just said goodbye to the love of his life for the very last time. This has become routine in many ways over the years, but this time, it seemed different.

However, as he pondered more, something became clear about what the difference was this time. The difference was that the last song and video she had seen were of children singing. That in itself gave the old man a sense of peace that he had never felt before it and for that the old man meant everything.

The old man suspects that when those involved were working so hard on this masterpiece just a few days later it would have such a profound impact on an old man and the love of his life.

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All Alone But Not Really

As I sit in our home it seems too large and empty for the one that makes it our home is still in the hospital fighting with every fiber of her being. As we spent time together this afternoon we shared memories of days gone by and the real seriousness of the issues we face regarding her health. I was able to show her a performance from the children at church this past Sunday and that made her so happy!

However, as another night falls upon us the tears will surely flow tonight for me I know that although I am physically alone in reality I am not alone at all.

You see, The Lord Jesus Christ is watching over me every single second.