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God’s Plan For Your Life

When we are growing up, we think we know what we want to happen in our lives. The thing for me is that even though I have fought against I have known since childhood what really brings joy to my soul, and that is talking about The Lord Jesus Christ.

However, there was a major obstacle to my plan. I had a severe speech problem, and my father made it clear that because of that, I could never do that. In fairness to him, these were the 1960’s, and he was only trying to protect his child. Now we fast forward 60 plus years, and so much has changed, of course, since then, with the biggest being the loss of my wife of 28 years. Something happened at the communion rail yesterday that came as a total surprise! It was like God was talking to me, and it was like the time is now to do what I sent you here to do. Now, a Pastor friend of mine will chuckle at the revelation because we have joked about this for years. When I stop and think about it, now is the right time to do what he has intended to do with my life. My wife is with him, and I have no other obligations. I have to deal with some hurdles, to continue to deal with but that is ok.

So here I go, wish me luck! ( and prayers)

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Kindness of Strangers

As we all go through life there are acts if kindness from people we have never met and probably will never meet again. Do you ever wonder who these people are and what motivated them to act in such a kind way towards you? Let’s be honest those kind folks often show up at times when we are not at our best? I know through the many years of my late wife’s health battles there were many acts of kindness by total strangers.

Here is an example as to what I am referring. I was walking the hall as my wife was having her 2nd open heart surgery within 9 days of each other when a woman approached. The woman asked me if she could ask me a question? That was ok with me. She said she had seen me walking by myself and said if I didn’t have any money she worked at the hospital cafeteria and we could use her credit to make sure I was fed. I assured her that I did have money on me but I did appreciate the gesture. I was just walking to kill time. That same woman could walk up to me today and I would not have any idea what she looks like. So when was the last time when a total stranger showed you an act of kindness?

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Mourning Of A Lost Love

On April 3,2025 I lost the love of my life of almost 30 years. We were married a bit over 28 of those years. Her given name was Nancy but to those of us who loved her so much she was better known as Nance. When I started calling her Nance I have no idea and it doesn’t really matter at this point! All that matters us that she has gone to be with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. She had been ill over about a decade and in December if 2024 I brought her home so she could die at home and that is what happened. It was her and I while the traditional hyms she grew up on played. Bring her home was the right decision but it is still very painful to live in our home knowing it is the place where she took her last breath.

However, as difficult as that was living without her is in many ways this is far worse. The silence in our home is beyond words. You see she was the music to our home. Her energy is what made life worth living and gave me the strength to carry on the battles if life. Now all I hear is a deafening silence that pierces my soul. I have tried playing music and leaving on the television at night for the noise but that really doesn’t help either. The only way I will ever find peace in my soul is the day I meet her with The Lord Jesus Christ!

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Why Me?

As we go through tough times there does come at some point that it is only natural that you ask yourself this question. Why me? It took 10 years of being a caregiver for my beloved wife ( and her death) and some potentially damaging news about my own health that I finally allowed myself to ask that question. Why so long you might ask? I have no idea. In many ways it is probably a miracle in itself that I haven’t allowed myself to ask that question long ago..

However, it really shouldn’t come as a surprise at all and frankly it’s part of the human experience. Throughout Scripture there are countless examples if people wondering why me? Even Jesus Christ had these immortal words “my god my god why have you forsaken me”? Or in other words he was asking his father in heaven the why me question.

So if you are asking yourself the why me question this day I have another question for you to ponder. As a believer the question becomes as follows. Why not me? You have The Lord Jesus Christ on your side while no believers don’t have that sense if comfort.