For those of us who have lost our long-time spouse and have no family and only church friends, you do struggle with one basic question about life. That question is basic but complex. The question why am I still on this earth? It’s not that you don’t want to live anymore, but we all need a purpose in life. When you are alone as much as I am, I do struggle with that question hour after hour and day after day. Sure, I have a cat, and she is a blessing, and all of my bills are paid, which is also a blessing, but the emptiness and loneliness get almost impossible to bear sometimes. I know my faith tells me I am never alone, but when I am all alone in my house, it feels like it’s 20,000 square feet large! My late wife had one big concern for me, and that was she was afraid that I would be left all alone, and unfortunately, she was right. Of course, during the day, I can get out and go pretty much anywhere I want, but even that sometimes doesn’t take away the loneliness I feel deep inside.
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