Are You Being Ask To Walk On Water?

As we go through our lives as believers we try and be strong but we all face those times in which we question we doubt just like in Peter in Matthew 14: 22-32.

22 Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that his disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake, while he sent the people home.

23 After sending them home, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. Night fell while he was there alone.

24 Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves.

25 About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water.

26 When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!”

27 But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here! ”

28 Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.”

29 “Yes, come,” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus.

30 But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted.

31 Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?”

32 When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped.

It is not really a question of whether you will be asked to walk on your personal water or not. The question is will you have the faith to do so when called?

Bringing Her Home

A few weeks ago I made the decision to bring my wife home fulfilling her desire to die at home. ( which is very common). She keeps fighting and eats what she can but it is slowly fading. The most common phrase is ” if we make it to?”. The thing is that it’s true for all of us in one form or another. We all have a tendency to look ahead instead of looking at what is right in front of us.

For me, I keep telling her it’s going to be ok and she is positive in her thought process.

It was the right decision and I don’t regret it for one second but that doesn’t make it any easier.

Will She Ever Come Home?

I was asked yesterday if my wife would ever get to come home. My response was ” I think so.” Well, after spending time with her yesterday, I am not so sure. She has been through so much and this is the most depressed I can ever recall seeing her in our over 25 years together. Having gone through what she has gone through I think anyone would feel depressed. The facility has mental health people there to help her but I will bring in people I trust to try and help her.

Will she ever come home? Only God knows that!

The Awaited Call

As I await a phone call from my wife with the results of a medical test that could change everything. You would think that we you have to have your wife admitted to a hospital 5 times with about 7 and a half weeks you would get somewhat use it the wait. You don’t because you simply never know how things are going to change next.

As I sit here alone ( again) and ponder what tomorrow is for me personally ( my 65th birthday) I look back to a conversation I had with my mother earlier today. She asked me if I was excited about tomorrow? No and why should I? For me, it’s just another day in which I worry that the love of my life will be taken from me.

Will that call come tonight? I have no idea? The loneliness I feel won’t be leaving anytime soon then again in ways it hasn’t since this journey started all those many weeks ago.